But when the night is falling
And you cannot find the light
If you feel your dreams are dying
Just hold tight...

Today I fufilled one of the goals which I set for myself. That is, to play mahjong with my Ah-Ma. From the day I was born, I constantly marvelled at the way my grandmother played, a mixture of quick thinking, keen observation and of course with that tinge of luck. 18 or so years later and she's a little slower, a little less alert but still just as lucky. As I had only recently learnt this game and was playing with people who had years and years of experience, coming out of the game with my wallet remaining the same was a miracle in itself. My aunty was the only one who lost and the only winner in the game was ("surprise surprise") my grandmother...........It was great to finally be able to have something which my grandmother and I can connect in. Language barriers(she speaks teochew, I only speak English) have severly restricted our topics of conversation and I don't really get to grow closer to my grandma. Though its only a game, it still is something which at least we have in common and can talk about the game itself.

Anyway, went to my very very adorable niece Jamie's birthday party. She's 1 years old!!!! The food there was very good, one of the best catered food I've eaten in a while. The cake was equally good. Jamie wasn't in a very good mood however, she was smiling and laughing when I got there but by the time I left, she was crying. Maybe she doesn't like crowds or she's too tired. Whatever it is, I just can't wait to be a father myself. I really think there's nothing better than starting a family and taking care of your children with the one you love.

ok........I think I'm being slightly sentimental today.

Is there such a thing as destiny? Are we all able to choose what we can become, or is it all pre-destined? This age old question, yet to be answered, and will go unanswered till the time you meet your creator. I however believe that we are all given choices and from there we "create" our destiny. For example, there's no such thing as "if fate allows it, we'll be together one day". That's a famous line for rejecting someone. If that person doesn't want to be with the rejected party, they can meet up everyday and there'll still be no relationship between the 2. Thats not fate, that's just the choice of the so called "rejectee". But nonetheless, we all should be thankful if there's no such thing as destiny. It would be sad to be destined for failure, and frankly it'll be unfair too. I feel sorry for the one who, no matter what he/she does, will fail. Even the handicapped, have a choice to live their life to the fullest, they can suceed, while many of us healthy beings fail. If there's such a thing as destiny, then the handicapped should be destined to fail right? After all, the purpose of the handicap is to hinder them and "stop" them from succeding.

Hope everything will turn out good for you. Just a reminder that i'm always here if you need me....just ask.

Ok, I'm rambling on and on. Will stop here for now.


But when the night is falling
And you cannot find a friend
If you feel your tree is breaking
Just bend...