Infinite dreams, I can’t deny them,
Infinity is hard to comprehend.
I couldn’t hear those screams,
Even in my wildest dreams
Did I ever mention I'm easily agitated nowadays? Case in point: Last Monday, I was "working" in the Free Access Lab from 6-10. Basically my job is just to shut down all the computers when 945 comes around and well, nothing else really. I actually bothered doing tutorials during that time. I was focused and even serious about it. Then some year 1 arsewipes decided to barge in the lab and make a hell lot of noise. 6-10 pms are usually the time when it is most quiet in the lab, as all the hellraisers are raising hell outside of school. But this irritating group of year 1 idiots, who still study the shit subject POM, spoilt the serenity of the lab. I might not have felt so strongly about assholes like these 1 or 2 years back but in the time that they were in the lab, I had a very strong urge to just whack them.....And I did. I'll leave the details out.
Anger and my inability to control it will only lead to my destruction. After all a cool head is able to solve more problems than a clouded one ever can. I think its just a phase though and it'll pass soon enough.
School's never been more monotonous. Once again, I rant on and on about the 6 freaking "marketing" modules we've been made to take. You know the worst lecture of all? Its gotta be that Marketing Research lecture by Pang Ching Chong or PCC in short. Its damn dull, he just reads from the slides and after the first lecture, I made it a point to self study for that subject and never attend another of his lecture, lest I lose all faith in the subject itself. I heard he's actually not that bad during tutorials. Frankly, I doubt it.
Hey you know what? I realise I'm quite a negative person nowadays eh. Just a reflection of my current mood of boredom I guess. I need something new in my life! To spice things up. To make me look forward to waking up in the morning. Hmm.......
Oh, and to answer some people, the pills I'm talking about in the last post are sleeping pills. I'm quite dependent on them to get some zzzzz. Started taking them quite some time ago actually but forcing myself to cut down nowadays. And also, no, i'm not in any serious relationship right now. Vanessa has got her own life to lead so stop bugging me to bug her. I'm just keeping my options open for now alright?
Well thats all for today. I leave you with the Video of "Don't Cry" by Gun's N Roses. Classic and superbly sublime rock ballad. What can I say, they do after all have the best rock guitarist(in my opinion) in the world, in terms of guitar techniques and skill as well as personality and style. SLASH!
Enjoy the vid......the lyrics are cool too...
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Wednesday, May 9, 2007
If there was one
Just one wish
That could be granted
What would i wish for?
The past weekend proved interesting to us soccer fanatics, as it more or less concluded the EPL season with the crowning of Man Utd as the champions. It was a weekend where the color of passion, RED, beat the color of serenity, blue. When the blue half of Manchester failed to stop the red half, it was up to the blue half of London(Chelsea) to beat the Red half and pride of london(Arsenal). Sadly, for the blues, it was not to be for them. Still, kudos to both teams for making the title race this season that much more interesting than the previous 2 seasons. Unfortunately for both of them, this will be the last time they're ever going to win the title cause Arsenal gonna sweep the competition away in the following years to come. So enjoy it while it lasts suckers!
Speaking of which, I played for the Gooners Fc again last Sunday. At a public field outside Fernvale Primary School. Fernvale. Never heard of it? Its actually a LRT stop. Still doesn't ring any bells? FER-N-VA-LE! Its near Sengkang. No? Nothing comes to mind? Well I don't blame you for not knowing where this isolated place is. In fact, the next 3 LRT stops after Fernvale is not even open(Thangamm,Farmway and Cheng Lim-->wtf LRT names are these?). To me it was like a little town, all by its own seperated from Singapore with a modest population of maybe around 67. Just goes to show you that despite how small we are compared to the rest of the world, we just aren't as small as they/we think.
Its actually a great place in the evening, cooling, with not much infrastructure to speak of and little or no traffic at all. A good place to go kite flying or have a picnic under the stars or something like that. Or just to walk around the area with your other half in the night, then surprising her with a bouquet of flowers you hid at a predestined spot and feeding her chocolates under the stars. Blah blah blah, seems like its the same thing I say everytime. It has no meaning to any but one. So just ignore this last paragraph.
For the record, we won the match 2-0. I love winnning.
The appeal of school is lost, where I'm locked in my own world, drifting in and out of tutorials and lectures like a phantom, just getting through this last phase of poly life. My enthusiasm for school is at an all time low. Marks aren't important to me anymore, thanks to the abominable marking system of TEP. Even if I score all distinctions this semester, where can it bring my GPA up to? I'm looking to start a new career path actually, I think business ain't the right path for me. All along I wanted to be in Mass Communication but the closest I ever got to it was through Vanessa. After my poly life I'll most probably get into that industry though, and work my way up. After all, I know I have the talent, and I certainly have the passion for it.
Well soccer tomorrow as usual. Today Sebastian asked me why I didn't arrange any matches for my own team anymore. Wanted to tell him "cause we suck worse than Leeds Utd" but then Melvin was around so I just used him and his "permanent" ankle injury as an excuse.
Time to get some precious sleep. Haven't been sleeping well lately. I need my pills to sleep or I'll get too restless. But trying to kick the addiction is harder than expected. Mind over matter though......whether I think can or I can't, I'm right.
Its hard to take it all in. For all the time we spent together means nothing now. Its truly over.
If we become memories
Even memoires cannot contend
With the warmth from your side
So a wistful sigh unerringly welled forth
May it take flight and go so far that it reaches you
Just one wish
That could be granted
What would i wish for?
The past weekend proved interesting to us soccer fanatics, as it more or less concluded the EPL season with the crowning of Man Utd as the champions. It was a weekend where the color of passion, RED, beat the color of serenity, blue. When the blue half of Manchester failed to stop the red half, it was up to the blue half of London(Chelsea) to beat the Red half and pride of london(Arsenal). Sadly, for the blues, it was not to be for them. Still, kudos to both teams for making the title race this season that much more interesting than the previous 2 seasons. Unfortunately for both of them, this will be the last time they're ever going to win the title cause Arsenal gonna sweep the competition away in the following years to come. So enjoy it while it lasts suckers!
Speaking of which, I played for the Gooners Fc again last Sunday. At a public field outside Fernvale Primary School. Fernvale. Never heard of it? Its actually a LRT stop. Still doesn't ring any bells? FER-N-VA-LE! Its near Sengkang. No? Nothing comes to mind? Well I don't blame you for not knowing where this isolated place is. In fact, the next 3 LRT stops after Fernvale is not even open(Thangamm,Farmway and Cheng Lim-->wtf LRT names are these?). To me it was like a little town, all by its own seperated from Singapore with a modest population of maybe around 67. Just goes to show you that despite how small we are compared to the rest of the world, we just aren't as small as they/we think.
Its actually a great place in the evening, cooling, with not much infrastructure to speak of and little or no traffic at all. A good place to go kite flying or have a picnic under the stars or something like that. Or just to walk around the area with your other half in the night, then surprising her with a bouquet of flowers you hid at a predestined spot and feeding her chocolates under the stars. Blah blah blah, seems like its the same thing I say everytime. It has no meaning to any but one. So just ignore this last paragraph.
For the record, we won the match 2-0. I love winnning.
The appeal of school is lost, where I'm locked in my own world, drifting in and out of tutorials and lectures like a phantom, just getting through this last phase of poly life. My enthusiasm for school is at an all time low. Marks aren't important to me anymore, thanks to the abominable marking system of TEP. Even if I score all distinctions this semester, where can it bring my GPA up to? I'm looking to start a new career path actually, I think business ain't the right path for me. All along I wanted to be in Mass Communication but the closest I ever got to it was through Vanessa. After my poly life I'll most probably get into that industry though, and work my way up. After all, I know I have the talent, and I certainly have the passion for it.
Well soccer tomorrow as usual. Today Sebastian asked me why I didn't arrange any matches for my own team anymore. Wanted to tell him "cause we suck worse than Leeds Utd" but then Melvin was around so I just used him and his "permanent" ankle injury as an excuse.
Time to get some precious sleep. Haven't been sleeping well lately. I need my pills to sleep or I'll get too restless. But trying to kick the addiction is harder than expected. Mind over matter though......whether I think can or I can't, I'm right.
Its hard to take it all in. For all the time we spent together means nothing now. Its truly over.
If we become memories
Even memoires cannot contend
With the warmth from your side
So a wistful sigh unerringly welled forth
May it take flight and go so far that it reaches you
Tuesday, May 1, 2007
Passion, the one thing needed if you wish to have any measure of success. What is talent without passion driving it on? So screw the people who are half hearted. Acting like a prima donna, coming only for the games and totally neglecting the fucking fact that without training, without the understanding, the game of soccer cannot be played. The world's top soccer stars can gather for a game but they will be no match for a TEAM. Individual skills can only get you so far in a game meant for 11 people. I've had enough of this shit. Organising all this shit every time is a waste of my SMS and a fucking waste of my time. People who don't even bother to fucking reply a simple fucking YES or NO but leave it hanging in the air. I'm no sucker, i'm not going to do all the dirty work just for you jackasses to make it dirtier and harder for me.
Its time for a new start, hopefully a new team with the Gooners Fc. There's nothing better than to know that I'm playing for a team representing the football club which I support. It just gives me that extra edge to put in that extra 10 or 20 percent when I play and even when my lungs are bursting and my legs are hurting, I just go on till finally, the restraints of the human body catches up. Still, its fucking cool to be able to play a game with a organised team, a team which shares the same passion for both the game and the club. There's going to be another game with them this Sunday, I just can't wait for it and I'm going to train myself up for it.
I think I'm a bit hot headed these days. Where I used to merely smile and get on with life when things did not go my way, I now face it head on and let my anger get the best of me. I'm losing my patience. With a lot of things. I'm just waiting, waiting for the right time to finally unleash all the pent-up fury in me on some poor unsuspecting fool who crosses me. Actually I have no idea why I'm like this nowadays, I guess the line has been crossed, where my patience has just run out. I'm trying my best to control, to keep my cool and sanity so that it won't get me into any sort of trouble. Ahh...whatever man.
School has started. What do I feel about it? Nothing actually. I'll just treat it like its TEP all over again and won't give much thought about it.
Well thats about all.
Its time for a new start, hopefully a new team with the Gooners Fc. There's nothing better than to know that I'm playing for a team representing the football club which I support. It just gives me that extra edge to put in that extra 10 or 20 percent when I play and even when my lungs are bursting and my legs are hurting, I just go on till finally, the restraints of the human body catches up. Still, its fucking cool to be able to play a game with a organised team, a team which shares the same passion for both the game and the club. There's going to be another game with them this Sunday, I just can't wait for it and I'm going to train myself up for it.
I think I'm a bit hot headed these days. Where I used to merely smile and get on with life when things did not go my way, I now face it head on and let my anger get the best of me. I'm losing my patience. With a lot of things. I'm just waiting, waiting for the right time to finally unleash all the pent-up fury in me on some poor unsuspecting fool who crosses me. Actually I have no idea why I'm like this nowadays, I guess the line has been crossed, where my patience has just run out. I'm trying my best to control, to keep my cool and sanity so that it won't get me into any sort of trouble. Ahh...whatever man.
School has started. What do I feel about it? Nothing actually. I'll just treat it like its TEP all over again and won't give much thought about it.
Well thats about all.
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